* one old love she can imagine going back to ... and one who reminds her how far she has come.

* enough money within her control to move out and rent a place of her own even if she never wants to and needs to.

* something perfect to wear if the employer or date of her dreams wants to see her in an hour.

* a youth she's content to leave behind.

* a past juicy enough that she's looking forward to retelling it in her old age.

* the realization that she is actually going to have an old age and some money set aside to fund it.

* a set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill, and a black lace bra.

* one friend who always makes her laugh ... and one who lets her cry.

* a good piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in her family.

* eight matching plates, wine glasses with stems, and a recipe for a meal that will make her guests feel honored.

* a resume that is not even slightest bit padded.

* a feeling of control over her destiny.